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Ever wanted a place for passion, an escape from everyday reality?

A place to lose yourself in science-fiction, music, spirituality and more? Passion for late nights and fuzzy days, exploring the internet? A source of inspiration? To connect with likeminded people and start a revolution?

If Yes, you’ve might have come to the right place.

If No, look anyway. ;)

Randomized II

Music Posted on Sun, January 06, 2019 17:38:59

My new song ”Randomized II” is the culmination of a period of studying of popular and classic music. To find the essence of the craft: Tonality, intervals, bass lines and much more.

It is building on a concept of combining chance with conscious choice for song-writing. A method used by David Bowie in his music career. But this doesn’t sound like a tune of David Bowie. Rather it is a progressive metal experiment with a sublime element of music ecstasy. Building upon the pentatonic C-Minor scale with additional tones fitting for the work as a whole.

I worked my ass off to present a work transcending my previous attempts that were more about good vocals and darkness and not equally much about song-writing in itself.

You be the judge of the end result. That in my opinion has much in common with Opeth’s music.

The things that made me build on earlier attempts were in my opinion the theory of bridges, bass work, the structure of classical music sonatas, drum work and orchestrations.

It was a joy to write that became much more rewarding in the end due to the attempt to work against lack of structure, find hard discipline and also the act of not repeating myself too much.

I was rewarded for it.

Download the song as a mp3-file here: Randomized II


Music Posted on Sun, December 30, 2018 19:18:25

An electronic experiment twisting the serious side of music around to create a work of sonic humour.

Listen and enjoy!

Download the song as a mp3-file here (with vocals): Disgrace With Vocals or without vocals Disgrace

Partial Isolation

Music Posted on Sun, December 30, 2018 19:13:41

A progressive rock experiment with classical influences sharing a story of personal rediscovery of the joys of isolation, philosophy, art and science.

A work I’m really proud of.

Download the song as a mp3-file here: Partial Isolation


Fiction Posted on Sun, December 30, 2018 19:05:12

On a mothership beyond the local star system preparations is made for an interstellar war with a life form assuming technological progress. A group of soldiers is sharing a destiny of ironic laughter, fearless and thirsting for war. Closing in on a female soldier with rare qualities.

A story of war and humour twisting the assumptions of the genre.

Download the short story as a PDF-File here: Seriousity

Jobs, Money And Survival

Articles Posted on Sun, October 28, 2018 20:04:27

Sometimes you get pretty surprised by events that you at first thought would be your undoing but lately discovered was good for you in ways you just couldn’t predict.

This is how my application for job opportunities have changed the way I think about work and life in general. The realization is that work and the intellectual discipline to master different fields in work have presented opportunities for me to use my intellect to get creative in many ways. Also to learn skills to master these professional pursuits.

It isn’t just about learning different kinds of work. But to be able to present oneself for employers, master psychology to tackle tuff situations and still get a sense of satisfaction from these attempts.

The key insight is that the ideas presented in my fictional works are fine in themselves (From my perspective and many readers too). And those ideas have been tested by myself and others. Tried and tested theories in real life situations such as the meeting of other people. Also testing “happiness” levels from day to day as I have adopted different modes of thought relevant to particular times and places. But traditional work is great in the sense that it is more practical. One can get a good reality check just by assuming a new perspective and testing that perspective in real work scenarios. It is also fuelling creativity in a more practical sense. It is a rush to assume a new perspective, learn some new skills and search for new job opportunities made possible just because one has learned the tricks of the trade.

Watching life become much more easy to conquer.

It was the same when I started to play chess several months ago. To adopt new ideas and then being able to test those ideas in real chess games. Watching fuzzy ideas melt away and strengthening true creativity that arises in the context of a real game environment.

That’s the problem with writing and art in general. That what emerges on page not necessarily has to work in real life. It just has to have a sense of emotional resonance. And being interesting.

So what happened when I started with chess playing and searched for work beyond writing projects, meditation and so on was that I felt a closer connection to reality. To human nature too as our ancestors had to have a strong sense of direction, perception and intellectual capacity to become survivors among other species competing for terrain.

Getting real, getting authentic. And watching writing also improve due to real life experience.

I have started to search more for new job opportunities. Doing it for the money off course but also for the adventure. To apply for jobs I couldn’t handle in the beginning. It is a kind of rush. But a rush demanding an active thinker/participant.

It has changed the way I combine creative pursuits such as writing with more practical elements.

Even martial arts.

But there is more to it: I have learnt that the discipline to earn more money results in the access to an inner reward system that rewards the worker as he/she increases chances for survival and reproduction.

Human life from my perspective is not so much about subjective leanings. It is rather about survival and reproduction and subjective leanings towards different areas has to be combined with knowledge about human nature. That sex, work and family gives birth to an inner reward system resulting in greater happiness levels in the long run.

Work can be tedious, hard and draining. But that is work that lacks a creative angle and doesn’t fit personal goals. I think a healthy approach to work includes a creative angle and also has a sense of adventure. And for me personally good work also has a social element. As we are social animals with a good intellect.

Fighting for reproduction and survival.

What I have done lately is to establish a clear path to professional goals. That I search for jobs in new areas. That I work on my skill set. That I have adopted a mode of adaptation to learn the tricks of the trade. But also to learn from mistakes. To change perspective on temporarily suffering. To enjoy the journey for what it is. To push myself beyond initial limitations. Taking rest in between and then pushing a bit further. Doing it as a passionate attempt to fuse creativity in writing with professional work experience.

Hopefully leading to a more balanced life giving rewards in the long run. Due to the nature of the human body and soul.


Fiction Posted on Thu, October 25, 2018 20:13:17

A short story about the connection between jazz, dreams and common sense reality.

Read and enjoy!


ID Software

Articles Posted on Wed, October 24, 2018 14:36:57

ID Software

I have become a bit different from how I was when I started with travel around 2010. Starting with travel journeys into the south parts of Sweden. Extending this to western Europé, India and so on. What made the difference was the realization that the intellect should be the decisive force in life.

That’s why I have become much more interested in intellectual disciplines such as chess and classical music (Mozart and Vivaldi in particular). But also a new found interest in the action packed shooters by ID Software such as Quake II, Doom 3 and Wolfenstein 2. These games are a good asset to train perception, battle-tactics, motor response and other factors. Leading to intellectual development.

In particular I’m very much into the Doom 3 game as it has a unique atmosphere with dread and doom. Not too dissimilar from stories of mine including “The Light Of The Beast” which was loosely inspired by the Doom 3 game.

ID software was a relief from boredom in my younger years as I started with graphics programming on my personal computer. A book written on game programming called “The Black Art of 3D Game Programming” by Michael Abrash pushed my teenager intellect into another dimension. I created a homesite which specialized in graphics programming for the 3dfx graphics chip.

Programming to me is about pushing the envelope to create fast graphics routines that can make it possible to show things never imagined. Today anything is possible though. Game design has started to focus more on story and character development as “photo realism” already is attained. Nowadays it is rather about the imagination. My deepest interest still.

Finding way to new concepts leading the individual to intellectual development.

Connecting further into the area of ID software I’m still amazed by the level design of these masters. As games such as Quake II has a unique atmosphere of claustrofobia, open areas and enemy design that display a threatening presence. But still rewarding the game player with the unlocking of secret areas, power-ups and heavy weapons. To make the individual to first feel threatened and then building power. A good balancing of factors.

I’m working on a computer game myself. Game design, visuals, story, character, sound design and music. It is something transcending my previous works presented on my blog and the continuation homesite. Much larger in scope. The concept is to present a video game to put an end to illuminati rule on earth. Leading the player to areas unveiling secrets about the rulers on earth. How to defeat them, their strengths and weaknesses. And during that conflict to present a way for the player to find leisure to build morale.

I don’t know if this game ever can be made. It demands a large budget, time and effort. I’m a writer mainly but I can promise you that if this game ever is made it will be epic in scope. Even leading the player to secret areas on the moon.

It is a clever push for anarchy.

What should interest readers mostly though is that I have seen the connection between game playing and life itself. The conscious choice to defeat enemies, think fast and responding in particular ways builds morale, intellectual strength and also gives the player a sense of purpose.

Life to me is about the right choices. Choices that demands a free-thinking individual. A topic I described in my latest novel “Beginners” about two chess players playing chess in Nazi Germany before the second world war.

The games by ID software presents a chance to build discipline in these areas. But to me games such as Doom 3 have helped me most in building morale as these games presents a huge threat. A sense of dread and doom that resembles tuff situations in life. From a psychological perspective. Better to indulge in the action and the horror to accept the bleak and hollow death of the individual soul.

Leading to dark enlightenment.


Music Posted on Fri, October 05, 2018 23:14:27

Black Hole

It’s strange how it happens. During the end of summer 2018 the author began a new period of personal development marking a bold transition from his former life. It was a period where the auhor found inspiration in Stoic philosophy to transcend his previous notions of success. To Include all insights from the past but also to uphold and prioritize pure action resulting in the attempt to start a revolution.

It is about affirming suffering and enduring hells to make the body and mind adjust to the demands of professional work, erotic encounters and to move beyond what is expected using disciplines such as body building, martial arts and many others. But it is not a suffering resulting in personal sacrifice. Rather a suffering emanating from the human soul to find passion in tuff situations. About building psychological and physical muscles to endure the troubles in the now, the past and in the future.

The new written works of fiction including “Erratic Pain” , “Insignificant” and “Beginners” describe this mode of consciousness in a direct way. It is about the tuff demands of the information age. The negative aspect of power structures and to find a sublime pleasure in suffering itself. Leading to personal growth.

It is also about transcending the concept of The Universal Mind to find the way to the soul. Described by thinkers such as Carl Jung but also an individual thing. Leading to a sense of purity, dark emotion and a will to contribute something new to the world. Not limited to past legends.

Music Studio

A new piece of music called “Empty” describes this new mode of consciousness in a sonic way. It is about strong work ethics, not clouded by external demands. But to transcend the troubles of the world to make the world much more easy to grasp and conquer. Still not to the loss of other person’s wills. Rather the opposite.

As a sonic experience the new song uses inspiration found by analysis of all kinds of music. Including classical music, progressive metal acts and movie sound tracks. It is marking a new period for the author as a musician as he has adopted a more serious approach to write music aiming for revolution.

Listen and enjoy:

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