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A place to lose yourself in science-fiction, music, spirituality and more? Passion for late nights and fuzzy days, exploring the internet? A source of inspiration? To connect with likeminded people and start a revolution?

If Yes, you’ve might have come to the right place.

If No, look anyway. ;)

Who Am I?

Articles Posted on Sun, September 09, 2018 14:12:04

I don’t want to scare my readers away. It is something I have realized by real life experience. And that is that most of my readers aren’t interested by my new mode of intellectual progress compared to my previous emotional stage resulting in the writing of Alien Forever: The Novel.

I have to be honest though. I look upon myself as an individual with a good sense of intellectual powers. Many people have said that I am a genius but if that is so have to be a subjective interpretation from your part.

Don’t be alarmed by my new mode of consciousness. I’m still very much interested in the mode of dark/individualistic/erotic power described by stories such as “Alien Forever: The Novel” and “Fading Blue Sun And White Amber The Black Magician”. My new short story “Erratic Pain” is all these things and more.

Alien Forever: The Novel is my most popular book. Now having around 2500 reads on Booksie.com and still counting. It is almost like listening to a tune from gothic rock bands such as “London After Midnight”, “Bauhaus” or “David Bowie”. I’m proud of it. And it has very much to do with my philosophy of survival and reproduction. Delving into ego, hate and darkness to push Christianity away. Not by burning churches but rather as an aesthetic thing. Just requiring emotional investment.

What makes me what I am is my mode of counter-culture. Coming from the basement. Pure anarchy. Extending this mode of being to never want to be like others (with additional skills of adaptation) to present something new, daring and different. And still giving way for emotional investment and clarity of vision.

Some things can be said about money too. I’m doing this for personal power, self-discovery and writing pleasure (including music). I don’t want to mix this passion with money as that would make me adapt to a mode of writing suitable for the masses.

I stand by my philosophy of being pure. Free from all concepts of what writing “should be” and just doing my thing. I attract dark occultists. Counter-culture giants, free artists and readers/writers that search for the fun. Not the big paycheck and absolutely not beings that want to conform to a mode of goodness.

Don’t be afraid of my new mode of intellect as it mostly is required to push beyond initial limitation. To really create something with emotional resonance in the end. My new short story “Erratic Pain” should be a good example of that.

It is my most emotional story written this far.

Mostly individualistic.



Progress

News Posted on Sun, September 09, 2018 00:00:04

Beginners

Now I have been working on my novel “Beginners” about two chess players doing their thing during the second world war. Advancing on the board and connecting this knowledge with insights into money, relationships and power.

It has been a thrilling ride into chess tactics and strategy. Into bold manoeuvres on the board and several attempts to connect to the opposite sex. Getting unconventional work, attempting to work politically with a form of anarchy pushing others along their own paths.

It has worked beyond assumptions. I have to be truthful though. I have not formed a real relationship with any girl of my age yet. But several encounters have revealed it has become easy to build report. To make a good impression on girls using spoken language to convey confidence, common ground (attuning to the personality of the individual) and making myself more erotic just by adopting inner calm. Also using clothing (among other things) to make a good impression and adapting to a mode of body language to make things easier overall.

It is some of the points I will mention in my new novel “Beginners”.

Regarding chess I have finally become a real threat toward the opponent on my reading device. And just as I mentioned earlier this has emerged naturally as I found my weaknesses primarily had to do with too little attention put towards chess tactics compared to strategy.

Strategy (in the form I have implemented it) only took me beyond beginner blunders and made me more interested in the game itself. It is rather chess tactics that has given way for better resistance to my software program.

Chess is not only about memorizing concepts that worked before. It is the cold and calculating activity of consciously choosing to watch the board beyond preconceptions. Building on previous games but to decide actual moves adjusted to the position at hand. Evaluating several moves ahead. Including all opportunities and threats on the board.

Primarily (in my case) to find threats rather than opportunities.

It is an ongoing activity. And it is an intellectual faculty that can be developed over time. To evaluate what is important several moves ahead and to observe deviances in the way a game develops over time.

I have also seen that success with money can be built on similar principles. As adjustment to professional scenes at hand to a large extent can make one adept to advance short term. Requiring a fluid mind that at speed can form good decisions. Attuning to the collective flow.

When it comes to power I have seen the same principle work beyond assumptions. Adjusting to a social context by bypassing individual preferences and attuning to the individuals spoken to. By letting go of emotion, watching the scenes unfold and building creative decisions upon these chunks of information.

The difference between chess and success in power has very much to do with complexity primarily. As life itself is more complex than a game. And that to be guided by will and emotion (to balance intellectual rigor with emotion) can make it easier to leap into the unknown and still make it easy for others to attune to the leaders.

Confronting fears and changing perspective.

It is some of my insights and a thrill ride for sure.

With all this said I have finally made some other observations. And that is that I clearly can see parallels between my mode of writing and success in chess, relationships, money and power. It has become important to build on the will, investigate this will and finally abandon intellectual concepts for the Universal Mind.

It is a three-step process. Attuning to chess (or the collective) has to be combined with self-knowledge. Discovering purity, assuming purity and combining this new found mode of consciousness with the will of the collective.

How else to make a good impression on the opposite sex?

One has to distinguish oneself from others in order to build report. And finding a way to work that fits oneself. Not only others. This power of self-knowledge makes it easier to build motivation for creative expression later.

And to combine the personal with the collective is to choose personal emotions, thoughts and observations that actually fits the social (or professional) scenes at hand.

A large chunk of personal preferences are also to be cultivated to not make oneself too dependent on limited circumstances.

It is a journey towards an abstract goal. Something you need in order to push yourself beyond ordinary states of consciousness and becoming a ruler. Not with a will to force others under your command. Instead to build report. To attune to the collective (with knowledge of the will of others) with aspects of the self in combination with other person’s will. To mix the individual with the collective.

And in the end to forget about it and to just enjoy what is coming at you in the moment.

To forget the simple rules for the complexity of individual expression. Finding the way to additional emotion as you find the way to internal and external wholeness.

Also to abandon knowledge to some extent for an intuition built upon true life experience.

The Norwegian grand master in chess Magnus Carlsen has said that mastery in chess very much has to do with finding the way to this intuition as chess is very much about time. About a good intuition built upon true chess experience. Not only about a fast intellectual analysis taking too much time to make you a winner in actual chess games.

My greatest insight though is patience. That success in any context has to do with great motivation and endurance. Motivation that is needed to push beyond earlier horizons. To “suffer” on your own terms as you change perspective on “suffering”.

To walk the walk in new lands. As in chess (for me) to realize initial limitations and beginner weaknesses. An area I will explore in my coming novel “Beginners” at depth.

Stay tuned!