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Ever wanted a place for passion, an escape from everyday reality?

A place to lose yourself in science-fiction, music, spirituality and more? Passion for late nights and fuzzy days, exploring the internet? A source of inspiration? To connect with likeminded people and start a revolution?

If Yes, you’ve might have come to the right place.

If No, look anyway. ;)


Fiction Posted on Tue, October 02, 2018 02:55:20


A novel connecting chess with relationships, money and power.
Some kind of beast coming alive in Nazi Germany before the second world war.
A time of tanks, state police and secret service.

A bold statement concerning chess
connected to the author’s attempts to master the game.
A work towards personal victory.


The novel can be downloaded as a PDF-File here: Beginners


Articles Posted on Thu, September 20, 2018 18:14:56

Ok. Now I have been doing some research concerning job opportunities in the field of bartender jobs. And cafe jobs to add to that. And it has turned out that this field is interesting to me. Just because it presents good opportunities to get social at work. Also to get a bit physical to balance my interest in writing (An intellectual discipline) with more physical elements.

I worked as a personal assistant in the past. And that job was social too. But it was a little bit depressing due to the kind of people I had to work with. The individuals I worked with were a little bit too depressed to make me elevate in spirit so to speak. But it was a good experience on the other hand leading me to this area of bartending jobs and work along those lines. I would also like to became a DJ.

Success is a subtle thing. Subtle in the sense that it can hardly be reduced to external factors such as lending a job from a good employer. It has rather to do with a mind-set. The choice to value and perceive job opportunities as a chance to grow in different ways and presenting opportunities to advance in the career path chosen.

Just the decision to push myself beyond my comfort zone to talk to employers and employees have made me more firm in my belief that I’m the right person for these kind of jobs. It happened as I made myself comfortable being myself (and pushing beyond) in social contexts. Not playing too hard to impress. Or seeing myself as a loser. Rather taking it easy and enjoying the moments presented.

I have adopted a stoic mind-set of pushing myself beyond my comfort zone with small doses at a time. Getting time for rest. Getting time to adjust to the new experience. As in body-building psychological strength increases as the aspirant pushes himself beyond his/her comfort zone and then easing down to make the body and the psyche adjust to the experience gained.

It is something I had to learn the hard way. And also a point hinted at between the sentences in my new science-fiction story “Insignificant”. And my life have improved because of that.

It’s a new beginning.

Corporate Innovation

News Posted on Wed, September 19, 2018 17:41:33

It’s a fun thing. How things changes. I have gone from the shy guy with not much to say to became a real author (In the sense that I’m aiming for true art and to reach out to many readers around the globe) and to succeed in social contexts too. It is about my quest to overcome my introverted nature and to also succeed socially in the end.

Had a night in Vasteras, Sweden a week ago were I met a group of party animals to discuss such topics as the rules of attraction, communication skills and psychology. It went beyond my initial calculations. I have became a real author and also someone that can express that kind of thinking patterns to others aiming for a similar life style.

I think my new science-fiction story “Insignificant” can prove my new found approach to telling stories. That is that I invest much more time to find something that really interests me and to write from that kind of mind-set all along the way. And to also adopt a sense of style and language that fits the kind of story I’m trying to tell. But it doesn’t end with e-Books. These kind of thinking patterns have also made their way into how I craft my life. Especially in social contexts.

Nowadays I’m much more excited to apply for unconventional jobs. Bartending in this case. To apply for a job as a bartender on cool places close to the place where I live. I haven’t done the real part of the work yet but I estimate (built on talks with likeminded individuals) that I have a pretty good chance of success.

I’m doing it for the social experience but also for the chance of intellectual development this new career presents. For the money, for the chance to test my knowledge in areas such as psychology. Getting away from the abstract ideas to test them in real life. And to change approach if that is necessary.

I wrote a short story “Lost In New America” some time ago which represents the destiny of a typical guy that is aiming for an unconventional way to progress in his career. It was a horrifying blend of statements regarding the professional pursuit he had chosen but also a somewhat comforting message of adjusting to the parameters given in a capitalist society working by supply and demand.

I’m going for a similar trajectory myself. But this time of creating a business maybe specializing in odd bartending. Serving odd dishes and having an alternative choice of music and atmosphere.

I’m pulling myself out of my comfort zone step by step to attend seminars and later to have lectures on my own. Just to plant the message of research and innovation in areas such as writing, small business, rules of attraction and much more of the same kind.

My new novel “Beginners” about a couple of chess players during the time of the second world war will explore ideas such as these and present a path to the future with knowledge of the strengths and weaknesses (Primarily weaknesses) concerning the path to succeed in life beyond the chess game itself.

It’s surely a thrill ride.


Fiction Posted on Thu, September 13, 2018 15:56:55


Writing my memoirs has to be a secret topic. It has to be something personal, odd and forgotten. Forgotten in the sense that it has to have a vague notion of things. Separate from how things turned out and rather having a subjective quality to it. Like a ghost haunting. Not necessary how things happened.

Insignificant is the author’s natural progression from
works such as Alien Forever: The Novel.
A bold entrance into the domains of future colonialism.
A strange story resembling the autobiographical journey of the author.
Futuristic horror taken beyond conventions
into the dark domain of

Read and enjoy!

Download the memoirs as a PDF-File here: Insignificant

Finally Finished

News Posted on Thu, September 13, 2018 02:34:27

Finished with the writing of my new story “Insignificant” that became all what I intended and more. It became a metaphor for my own journey. “Memoirs” if you like. But much shorter for effect.

I will present the work online tomorrow.

Sleep tight.

Adaptation And Other Short Stories

Fiction Posted on Mon, September 10, 2018 14:23:58

Adaptation And Other Short Stories

A construction design artist lost in the modern world.
A bold adventure beyond physical existence.
A post-apocalyptic story about a man returning from outer space to a polluted earth.

The short story collection contains three different stories. Sharing no similarities except being products of the author’s heart, mind and soul. To present a work fitting for searchers in the modern era.

The short story collection can be downloaded as a PDF-File here: Adaptation Short Story Collection

Just read and enjoy!

Who Am I?

Articles Posted on Sun, September 09, 2018 14:12:04

I don’t want to scare my readers away. It is something I have realized by real life experience. And that is that most of my readers aren’t interested by my new mode of intellectual progress compared to my previous emotional stage resulting in the writing of Alien Forever: The Novel.

I have to be honest though. I look upon myself as an individual with a good sense of intellectual powers. Many people have said that I am a genius but if that is so have to be a subjective interpretation from your part.

Don’t be alarmed by my new mode of consciousness. I’m still very much interested in the mode of dark/individualistic/erotic power described by stories such as “Alien Forever: The Novel” and “Fading Blue Sun And White Amber The Black Magician”. My new short story “Erratic Pain” is all these things and more.

Alien Forever: The Novel is my most popular book. Now having around 2500 reads on and still counting. It is almost like listening to a tune from gothic rock bands such as “London After Midnight”, “Bauhaus” or “David Bowie”. I’m proud of it. And it has very much to do with my philosophy of survival and reproduction. Delving into ego, hate and darkness to push Christianity away. Not by burning churches but rather as an aesthetic thing. Just requiring emotional investment.

What makes me what I am is my mode of counter-culture. Coming from the basement. Pure anarchy. Extending this mode of being to never want to be like others (with additional skills of adaptation) to present something new, daring and different. And still giving way for emotional investment and clarity of vision.

Some things can be said about money too. I’m doing this for personal power, self-discovery and writing pleasure (including music). I don’t want to mix this passion with money as that would make me adapt to a mode of writing suitable for the masses.

I stand by my philosophy of being pure. Free from all concepts of what writing “should be” and just doing my thing. I attract dark occultists. Counter-culture giants, free artists and readers/writers that search for the fun. Not the big paycheck and absolutely not beings that want to conform to a mode of goodness.

Don’t be afraid of my new mode of intellect as it mostly is required to push beyond initial limitation. To really create something with emotional resonance in the end. My new short story “Erratic Pain” should be a good example of that.

It is my most emotional story written this far.

Mostly individualistic.


News Posted on Sun, September 09, 2018 00:00:04


Now I have been working on my novel “Beginners” about two chess players doing their thing during the second world war. Advancing on the board and connecting this knowledge with insights into money, relationships and power.

It has been a thrilling ride into chess tactics and strategy. Into bold manoeuvres on the board and several attempts to connect to the opposite sex. Getting unconventional work, attempting to work politically with a form of anarchy pushing others along their own paths.

It has worked beyond assumptions. I have to be truthful though. I have not formed a real relationship with any girl of my age yet. But several encounters have revealed it has become easy to build report. To make a good impression on girls using spoken language to convey confidence, common ground (attuning to the personality of the individual) and making myself more erotic just by adopting inner calm. Also using clothing (among other things) to make a good impression and adapting to a mode of body language to make things easier overall.

It is some of the points I will mention in my new novel “Beginners”.

Regarding chess I have finally become a real threat toward the opponent on my reading device. And just as I mentioned earlier this has emerged naturally as I found my weaknesses primarily had to do with too little attention put towards chess tactics compared to strategy.

Strategy (in the form I have implemented it) only took me beyond beginner blunders and made me more interested in the game itself. It is rather chess tactics that has given way for better resistance to my software program.

Chess is not only about memorizing concepts that worked before. It is the cold and calculating activity of consciously choosing to watch the board beyond preconceptions. Building on previous games but to decide actual moves adjusted to the position at hand. Evaluating several moves ahead. Including all opportunities and threats on the board.

Primarily (in my case) to find threats rather than opportunities.

It is an ongoing activity. And it is an intellectual faculty that can be developed over time. To evaluate what is important several moves ahead and to observe deviances in the way a game develops over time.

I have also seen that success with money can be built on similar principles. As adjustment to professional scenes at hand to a large extent can make one adept to advance short term. Requiring a fluid mind that at speed can form good decisions. Attuning to the collective flow.

When it comes to power I have seen the same principle work beyond assumptions. Adjusting to a social context by bypassing individual preferences and attuning to the individuals spoken to. By letting go of emotion, watching the scenes unfold and building creative decisions upon these chunks of information.

The difference between chess and success in power has very much to do with complexity primarily. As life itself is more complex than a game. And that to be guided by will and emotion (to balance intellectual rigor with emotion) can make it easier to leap into the unknown and still make it easy for others to attune to the leaders.

Confronting fears and changing perspective.

It is some of my insights and a thrill ride for sure.

With all this said I have finally made some other observations. And that is that I clearly can see parallels between my mode of writing and success in chess, relationships, money and power. It has become important to build on the will, investigate this will and finally abandon intellectual concepts for the Universal Mind.

It is a three-step process. Attuning to chess (or the collective) has to be combined with self-knowledge. Discovering purity, assuming purity and combining this new found mode of consciousness with the will of the collective.

How else to make a good impression on the opposite sex?

One has to distinguish oneself from others in order to build report. And finding a way to work that fits oneself. Not only others. This power of self-knowledge makes it easier to build motivation for creative expression later.

And to combine the personal with the collective is to choose personal emotions, thoughts and observations that actually fits the social (or professional) scenes at hand.

A large chunk of personal preferences are also to be cultivated to not make oneself too dependent on limited circumstances.

It is a journey towards an abstract goal. Something you need in order to push yourself beyond ordinary states of consciousness and becoming a ruler. Not with a will to force others under your command. Instead to build report. To attune to the collective (with knowledge of the will of others) with aspects of the self in combination with other person’s will. To mix the individual with the collective.

And in the end to forget about it and to just enjoy what is coming at you in the moment.

To forget the simple rules for the complexity of individual expression. Finding the way to additional emotion as you find the way to internal and external wholeness.

Also to abandon knowledge to some extent for an intuition built upon true life experience.

The Norwegian grand master in chess Magnus Carlsen has said that mastery in chess very much has to do with finding the way to this intuition as chess is very much about time. About a good intuition built upon true chess experience. Not only about a fast intellectual analysis taking too much time to make you a winner in actual chess games.

My greatest insight though is patience. That success in any context has to do with great motivation and endurance. Motivation that is needed to push beyond earlier horizons. To “suffer” on your own terms as you change perspective on “suffering”.

To walk the walk in new lands. As in chess (for me) to realize initial limitations and beginner weaknesses. An area I will explore in my coming novel “Beginners” at depth.

Stay tuned!

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